This Is Me

Wow! This place looks familiar. As I look around, I feel like I'm in a room from my childhood, familiar, maybe a little smaller than I remembered and full of great memories. I remember being witty, profound and curious.

I have recently experienced a change in my brain chemistry by way of a change in psych meds. It has not been an easy transition, and I am still waiting for my serotonin levels to exit the roller coaster ride they have been enjoying for the last few weeks. The ride has not been so fun for me.

The psychological community has a very patient wait and see approach to we patients adjusting to new medications.What that means to me is hours, days, weeks of not feeling quite right and not knowing what to do about it. There is nothing to do but wait. I have spent the better part of my last 20 years waiting for the medications to work their magic on me. They seem to always fall a bit short.

Don't misunderstand. I have a big job also. I have to stay ahead of the beast. And so I get on my Trikke and race ahead of my faulty brain chemistry. Most of the time I win the race. Lately, I have been stumbling.

It has been a perfect storm of events that have kept me from sitting here and sharing my thoughts and research with you. A lot of my inspiration comes from my Trikke. I have an injured ligament in my shoulder and have not been on Black Birdie for over a month, (sob). The weather in Southern California has been  bone shattering cold and rainy (I now appreciate the challenges of my east coast readers so much more!).

I write all this to ask you, my valued readers, to hang in there with me. I am really fighting the good fight, and I will be victorious, again. It just takes some time. Believe me, I've been here before.